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Thinking..... on Fri Oct 19, 2007 4:37 pm
Lately, I've been in a mild episode and of course it lands me thinking about things more than usual. I don't know why, but I feel led to share it here and I hope that it helps someone who may need it.
When I think about how far I've come in life, I'm so thankful that I'm still here. This illness can be a major bummer, but I'm thankful that it's humbled me as much as it has. It's given me a lot more knowledge about mental illness and I can understand where a lot of people are coming from. It also gives me the chance to help those who feel alone.
After the first couple years of being in denial, I finally realized that I have this illness, (as well as PTSD), and I have to have treatment in order to get through. It's been a long, hard, rocky, road but I know I'll always get through.
A lot of people have questioned God and wondered why they've been struck with such an illness. Rather than question, I decided to try and find something positive about it. Of course it didn't just take me a day and then I got hit over the head with....."Oh, I know!" I had to do a lot of searching within myself. After a while, I found that "why" I have the illness isn't the important thing. It's "what I'm going to do about it."
It's taken years of prayer, support, treatment and self-discipline. I'm still having my bad days and episodes, but I know that it's nothing I won't get through.
I'm thankful for the bad days as well as the good. Not only do the bad days help me enjoy the good days even better, they also make me stronger. They humble me to the point of realizing that I am absolutely nothing without God in my life.
I make my share of mistakes daily and I'm thankful that God is so loving, caring, and understanding.
When I think about how far I've come in life, I'm so thankful that I'm still here. This illness can be a major bummer, but I'm thankful that it's humbled me as much as it has. It's given me a lot more knowledge about mental illness and I can understand where a lot of people are coming from. It also gives me the chance to help those who feel alone.
After the first couple years of being in denial, I finally realized that I have this illness, (as well as PTSD), and I have to have treatment in order to get through. It's been a long, hard, rocky, road but I know I'll always get through.
A lot of people have questioned God and wondered why they've been struck with such an illness. Rather than question, I decided to try and find something positive about it. Of course it didn't just take me a day and then I got hit over the head with....."Oh, I know!" I had to do a lot of searching within myself. After a while, I found that "why" I have the illness isn't the important thing. It's "what I'm going to do about it."
It's taken years of prayer, support, treatment and self-discipline. I'm still having my bad days and episodes, but I know that it's nothing I won't get through.
I'm thankful for the bad days as well as the good. Not only do the bad days help me enjoy the good days even better, they also make me stronger. They humble me to the point of realizing that I am absolutely nothing without God in my life.
I make my share of mistakes daily and I'm thankful that God is so loving, caring, and understanding.
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[b]I am only perfect at my imperfection ~ angelkiss
