I have not been here for a few days, and although that does not engender feeling

, I do not feel very

about that.
How is all the church stuff going? Fantasticalist. I was thinking about an hour ago about what has happened and what God has done for me in the past two months, and it blows me away.
My wife and I of 30 years filed for divorce.
We put our house on the market.
God gave me six verses in the Bible that have helped me get through these past few months.
I got baptised with the Holy Spirit.
I received the gift of speaking in tongues and will explain why in a moment.
I joined a weekly prayer group that prays over the prayer requests submitted every Sunday in service.
God cast out the demon that was making me cut.
I stopped cutting after 2 years of torment with it, and now have gone 25 days without cutting.
I joined a weekly men's Bible Study group.
I started weekly therapy with a new Christian therapist.
I had two Panic Attacks on two consecutive Sundays while in the lobby of before service church that made me want to stop going to church alltogether.
I joined a weekly education group that studies the basics of Christianity.
I joined a Saturday evening prayer group that is Charismatic in nature.
Last Saturday at that prayer group, they cast another deamon out of me, the one, I believe, was making me want to stop going to church and having fellowship.
WOW! This is the most exciting time in my life. I never dreamed this would happen to me.
So about the speaking in tongues... I believe God gave me this gift because I find it almost impossible to pray even when alone. Just today, I was driving home and tried to pray. As usual, I froze. I could not even begin even thought I had the words in my mind. Nothing would come out of my mouth.
I heard a voice inside say, "See how powerful I am. I can prevent you from praying." I started to panic and cry. I felt completely taken over, and I wanted to rebuke that voice in the name of Jesus, but I couldn't. Nothing would come out of my mouth. I started crying in fear and the voice kept telling me that it would not let me pray.
My tears turned into moans and the moans turned into sounds. I made sounds for about 30 seconds. A peace came over me. I felt a strength inside. I then said out loud, "I rebuke you Satan in the name of Jesus Christ. Jesus binds you and commands you to leave." As my breathing slowed and I stopped crying, I actually smiled and felt happy.
I think that God gave me the gift of tongues because I can't pray well or at all sometimes. Perhaps the tongues will lessen if I learn to pray better, maybe not. All I know is that God is doing everything for me just as one of the verses He gave me says, "It is God who works in me both to will and to do for
His good pleasure."
I am so excited, I want to share this with someone. I love God so much.
Larry