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New Diagnoases on Mon Dec 10, 2007 2:17 am
I went to my counseling appoitment friday. We were talking about an incedent with my girls the other night. While we were talking, we talked about somethings that had happened to me as a kid, lots of verbal abuse and witnessed physcial abuse of my mom and so on. She suspect I may be suffering from Post Tramatic Stress Sydrome along with the depression and anxiety. I am not sure how I feel about this. I guess it make sense. My husband thinks it does, espeically since sometimes good things happen like a good church service, and after we leave, I can not accept that maybe that service was meant for me or that I can healed and I go numb.
I have a feeling this is going to be along road.
I confronted my husband again regarding his addiction of prongraphy. I told him I am an open book so to speak. he knows everything a bout me. He is a closed book. I know him superfisouly. He claims I know him more that most, but he keeps his wall up. He doesn't even kept himself accouta ble to anyone. He says very little. Our pastor knows about his addiction, and benched him without any counseling for 2 years. His is back on the platform singing and doing things, but is never checked on. I don't feel it is my place to "tell" on him but feel our marriage is very vuneralbe between my issues and his denial. I am seeking healing and his is content to live in his "world". I just don't know. Somedays I don't even want to deal with it. I am just trying to trust God. Once our girls are gone, one is 18 almost 19 and my baby graduates this year, which is another issue altogethter, I don't feel there is much left for us to fight for.
I do not intend to tell my pastor any of what my counselor said and my husband agrees. He knows how I feel about it. It really is said we can't go to the one that is suppose to help us. Well anyway,
thanks for listening and please keep praying. I am a little scared about this.
April:pale:
I have a feeling this is going to be along road.
I confronted my husband again regarding his addiction of prongraphy. I told him I am an open book so to speak. he knows everything a bout me. He is a closed book. I know him superfisouly. He claims I know him more that most, but he keeps his wall up. He doesn't even kept himself accouta ble to anyone. He says very little. Our pastor knows about his addiction, and benched him without any counseling for 2 years. His is back on the platform singing and doing things, but is never checked on. I don't feel it is my place to "tell" on him but feel our marriage is very vuneralbe between my issues and his denial. I am seeking healing and his is content to live in his "world". I just don't know. Somedays I don't even want to deal with it. I am just trying to trust God. Once our girls are gone, one is 18 almost 19 and my baby graduates this year, which is another issue altogethter, I don't feel there is much left for us to fight for.
I do not intend to tell my pastor any of what my counselor said and my husband agrees. He knows how I feel about it. It really is said we can't go to the one that is suppose to help us. Well anyway,
thanks for listening and please keep praying. I am a little scared about this.
April:pale:
